so. it started with branden and I meeting in High school. Right from the start we were a sure fit. Yea we had our life goals. but we didnt let that get in the way of starting a family real quick. :) bella was born and we knew that we wanted to be a family for all eternity. so Branden, Bella and I got sealed together in the Manti Temple. in 2003. My most favorite of all! Later on we had Our little man Logan. We sure thought that everything couldn't be anymore perfect! boy where we ever WRONG.
It was logan's first birthday. and everything was normal like any other birthday. he ate his cake was more excited about the wrapping paper than the actual gifts. A typical little boy. Fast forward about 8 months , I started to realize that he wasnt saying a lot of words. i mean the little stuff like "mama"
"dadda" "mine" stuff that he should already be saying. I was concerned so I asked his doctor. he said "don't compare him to his older sister. boys are slower than girls, lets wait a few more months" really? just wait? uh ok.. but No it wasnt ok. a few more months went by it was now his 2nd birthday. and he still wasnt really saying anything at all. he didnt make good eye contact. he wasnt even interested in playing with his cousins or sister. didnt play with his toys the way they are meant to be played with.. during his birthday my sister in-law actually mentioned it to me " you think he could be autistic"? huh? what? are you stupid? that's what I thought. but deep down inside of me. I knew something was definitely not right. :( but knowing me I just pushed it clear in the back of my mind and didnt think of it. a couple months went by and still feeling a little worried. I called up to the University of Utah and had him evaluated .. 3 doctors later. we found out yes he does has autism.. I dont know what happend in between the time of his birth to age 2 but he was different.. I see it know especially in his baby pictures. its something in his eyes, he is there but not.
so with Dr. Becks help at the The University of Utah. he was tested. it was a 4 month wait and 300 dollars just for the hour long visit. because insurance doesn't cover autism grrr! I didn't want to wait 4 months my baby had to see a doctor NOW. but all I could was wait. just wait for them to diagnose him. wait for them to tell me that this perfect little baby of mine now almost 2 and a half wasn't so perfect anymore. finally. the day of the visit. it was a long and horrible day. Logan was all over the place.lol climbing on top of me running all over the doctors office. and not wanting to comply with the doctor. I was sweating bullets. I couldn't control him. he was like a monkey at the zoo. the doctor wasn't able to fully do the tests but he knew YES AUTISM. for sure. my heart broke I was really hoping that he was going to tell me I was a worried parent. but no.
I really thought that, That day was going to be the end of our worries. boy was I ever wrong it really was the first day, of this way long and tiring journey that we are still and will always be going threw.
It was logan's first birthday. and everything was normal like any other birthday. he ate his cake was more excited about the wrapping paper than the actual gifts. A typical little boy. Fast forward about 8 months , I started to realize that he wasnt saying a lot of words. i mean the little stuff like "mama"
"dadda" "mine" stuff that he should already be saying. I was concerned so I asked his doctor. he said "don't compare him to his older sister. boys are slower than girls, lets wait a few more months" really? just wait? uh ok.. but No it wasnt ok. a few more months went by it was now his 2nd birthday. and he still wasnt really saying anything at all. he didnt make good eye contact. he wasnt even interested in playing with his cousins or sister. didnt play with his toys the way they are meant to be played with.. during his birthday my sister in-law actually mentioned it to me " you think he could be autistic"? huh? what? are you stupid? that's what I thought. but deep down inside of me. I knew something was definitely not right. :( but knowing me I just pushed it clear in the back of my mind and didnt think of it. a couple months went by and still feeling a little worried. I called up to the University of Utah and had him evaluated .. 3 doctors later. we found out yes he does has autism.. I dont know what happend in between the time of his birth to age 2 but he was different.. I see it know especially in his baby pictures. its something in his eyes, he is there but not.
so with Dr. Becks help at the The University of Utah. he was tested. it was a 4 month wait and 300 dollars just for the hour long visit. because insurance doesn't cover autism grrr! I didn't want to wait 4 months my baby had to see a doctor NOW. but all I could was wait. just wait for them to diagnose him. wait for them to tell me that this perfect little baby of mine now almost 2 and a half wasn't so perfect anymore. finally. the day of the visit. it was a long and horrible day. Logan was all over the place.lol climbing on top of me running all over the doctors office. and not wanting to comply with the doctor. I was sweating bullets. I couldn't control him. he was like a monkey at the zoo. the doctor wasn't able to fully do the tests but he knew YES AUTISM. for sure. my heart broke I was really hoping that he was going to tell me I was a worried parent. but no.
I really thought that, That day was going to be the end of our worries. boy was I ever wrong it really was the first day, of this way long and tiring journey that we are still and will always be going threw.
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